Saturday, July 23, 2016

"...by my side."

"Please, just one last time. Let me stay by your side. I just want to feel you right here in my arms. I know that you don't deserve me as much as much as I love you, but at least give me a chance.
I knew right from the start that you never love me. That I don't have your heart. And yet I forced myself unto you. In any means possible, I was able to convince everyone else that we were meant to be. Everyone, even the person you truly loved. Everyone else, except you. Your heart just never found its way to mine.
Why can't you love me? Where was I lacking? Where did I go wrong? What does that person have that I don't? Am I not your type? Is there something wrong with me? Why is it always that person? Am I not enough for you? I cannot help but think these useless questions in my head.
Back then, I was so determined to make you love me. I refuse to believe that one cannot for love to someone. I guess I just proved that statement. You never became mine. Now, for one last time, please stay with me. I don't care if you love someone else, just let me feel that your heart belongs to mine. After this, I'll stop. I won't intrude in your life anymore. I will leave you alone and I promise that.
For one last moment, stay by my side. Before I say goodbye."

Friday, July 22, 2016

Virtual Task # 1



 Name: Julia Marie B. Malate

Strand and Section: HUMSS - Weber

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Saturday, July 2, 2016

shoes. : "... meant to be."

"I never thought that a day like this would come. The day where I rest my head in your lap as you tell me your funny stories. The day where fiddling our hands together seems to be very romantic and interesting. The day me sending you light kisses in your face is something I am comfortable to do. The day where I can truly say that I love you. 
I know that we didn't start out a good relationship. In fact, it was a rocky one. We started out as childhood friends but a few years later, we turned out to be engaged — together by our families. It was hard considering the fact that I had a girlfriend at that time, and she wasn't just a fling. However, you dismissed and ignored our relationship. I can still remember you say, ' I'm the third party in your love story. If there's anything I can do to help you two, I'll do this.' or something like that. So I spend my weekdays with her and weekends with you.
 It didn't took long till I realized that I was enjoying your company more than her. She also noticed this. So, I decided to distance myself from you. Oh, that week was so hard to endure. All I could think of was you even if I'm with her. I'm still thankful to her , though . She was the one who finally cleared up my messed up thoughts and feelings .
When she broke up with me, I wasn't mad. But I did ask her, why? Why did we fall apart? The next thing she said was the best answer I could ever have : "Our relationship wasn't made out of true love. We thought it was true love but it wasn't . How did I know? When I saw you with her together, I can tell. That you both expressed true love for each other. True love has its own unique aura. It's  calm, comfortable, happy and expresses contentment. It has that vibe that I can't explain and I found that in both of you , which I never found in both of us." She then told me to never let you go, and you know what? I took that advice wholeheartedly. 
At first, it was hard when I didn't tell you my feelings: I became ecstatic, confused, and jealous for different various reasons. And at last , I was finally able to tell you how I feel. 
When I told you my feelings, you never believed it immediately. You taught I was joking, which I wasn't. It was hard to make you believe that I was serious at that time. So, what I did was what any guy would do: to court you. That's the time you took me seriously. It took me months to make you mine but I never regretted a thing because now we are here, enjoying each other's company. 
You told me that if I ever find someone else who can me make my heart beat fast, I could tell you. I'm sorry, in all these people I only see you. My heart beats for you. I can say that we're truly meant to be."