Saturday, July 23, 2016

"...by my side."

"Please, just one last time. Let me stay by your side. I just want to feel you right here in my arms. I know that you don't deserve me as much as much as I love you, but at least give me a chance.
I knew right from the start that you never love me. That I don't have your heart. And yet I forced myself unto you. In any means possible, I was able to convince everyone else that we were meant to be. Everyone, even the person you truly loved. Everyone else, except you. Your heart just never found its way to mine.
Why can't you love me? Where was I lacking? Where did I go wrong? What does that person have that I don't? Am I not your type? Is there something wrong with me? Why is it always that person? Am I not enough for you? I cannot help but think these useless questions in my head.
Back then, I was so determined to make you love me. I refuse to believe that one cannot for love to someone. I guess I just proved that statement. You never became mine. Now, for one last time, please stay with me. I don't care if you love someone else, just let me feel that your heart belongs to mine. After this, I'll stop. I won't intrude in your life anymore. I will leave you alone and I promise that.
For one last moment, stay by my side. Before I say goodbye."

Friday, July 22, 2016

Virtual Task # 1



 Name: Julia Marie B. Malate

Strand and Section: HUMSS - Weber

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(What Bullying Is All About)

Saturday, July 2, 2016

shoes. : "... meant to be."

"I never thought that a day like this would come. The day where I rest my head in your lap as you tell me your funny stories. The day where fiddling our hands together seems to be very romantic and interesting. The day me sending you light kisses in your face is something I am comfortable to do. The day where I can truly say that I love you. 
I know that we didn't start out a good relationship. In fact, it was a rocky one. We started out as childhood friends but a few years later, we turned out to be engaged — together by our families. It was hard considering the fact that I had a girlfriend at that time, and she wasn't just a fling. However, you dismissed and ignored our relationship. I can still remember you say, ' I'm the third party in your love story. If there's anything I can do to help you two, I'll do this.' or something like that. So I spend my weekdays with her and weekends with you.
 It didn't took long till I realized that I was enjoying your company more than her. She also noticed this. So, I decided to distance myself from you. Oh, that week was so hard to endure. All I could think of was you even if I'm with her. I'm still thankful to her , though . She was the one who finally cleared up my messed up thoughts and feelings .
When she broke up with me, I wasn't mad. But I did ask her, why? Why did we fall apart? The next thing she said was the best answer I could ever have : "Our relationship wasn't made out of true love. We thought it was true love but it wasn't . How did I know? When I saw you with her together, I can tell. That you both expressed true love for each other. True love has its own unique aura. It's  calm, comfortable, happy and expresses contentment. It has that vibe that I can't explain and I found that in both of you , which I never found in both of us." She then told me to never let you go, and you know what? I took that advice wholeheartedly. 
At first, it was hard when I didn't tell you my feelings: I became ecstatic, confused, and jealous for different various reasons. And at last , I was finally able to tell you how I feel. 
When I told you my feelings, you never believed it immediately. You taught I was joking, which I wasn't. It was hard to make you believe that I was serious at that time. So, what I did was what any guy would do: to court you. That's the time you took me seriously. It took me months to make you mine but I never regretted a thing because now we are here, enjoying each other's company. 
You told me that if I ever find someone else who can me make my heart beat fast, I could tell you. I'm sorry, in all these people I only see you. My heart beats for you. I can say that we're truly meant to be."

Sunday, June 26, 2016

shoes. : "... you chose her."


"You've known me for years but you only knew her for months. I was there when you almost forgot to pick yourself up and lift your head up high but she was only there when you you were jumping out of joy. Just that. And yet after all those time, you chose to stay by her side!
Believe me, it was all an accident! When I saw her, I wanted to help her. I swear, that was my one and only intention! However, I didn't come on time and it was all too late. That is the truth! Why won't you listen to me!?
You can't blame me for something I didn't do. It's just, too cruel. This is purely misjudgement. You haven't even hear my explanation! You just can't dismiss me like a criminal just because I was at the scene before you. I may be insecure towards her but I'm not an animal. I respect her.
So why?
It's because you love her. At that time, she was the only one that matter to you. Only her. No, I wasn't part of the picture. Whenever she's around, I can see the glow in your eyes. You always stare lovingly at her. Your smiles shine brighter when you're with her. You, me, noone can hide that fact.
I knew you ever since you could talk. We're partners in crime, they would say. We would make the perfect team. Nevertheless, I know everything you. Our years together has tested time and pain. We both know each other too much. So why now? Why aren't here by my side when I needed you the most?
Between me, who has been with you since you played on the playground, and her, who you met a few months ago through a friend, she is more important and more valuable to you. In the end, you chose her."